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beautiful her full
figure and her eager face under her black curls, he will find
something better still, just as my disgusting, pitiful, and
charming husband does."
Dolly made no answer, she merely sighed. Anna noticed this sigh,
indicating dissent, and she went on. In her armory she had other
arguments so strong that no answer could be made to them.
"Do you say that its not right? But you must consider," she
went on; "you forget my position. How can I desire children?
Im not speaking of the suffering, Im not afraid of that. Think
only, what are my children to be? Ill-fated children, who will
have to bear a strangers name. For the very fact of their birth
they will be forced to be ashamed of their mother, their father,
"But that is just why a divorce is necessary." But Anna did not
hear her. She longed to give utterance to all the arguments with
which she had so many times convinced herself.
"What is reason given me for, if I am not to use it to avoid
bringing unhappy beings into the world!" She looked at Dolly,
but without waiting for a reply she went on:
"I should always feel I had wronged these unhappy children," she
said. "If they are not, at any rate they are not unhappy; while
if they are unhappy, I alone should be to blame for it."
These were the very arguments Darya Alexandrovna had used in her
own reflections; but she heard them without understanding them.
"How can one wrong creatures that dont exist?" she thought. And
all at once the idea struck her: could it possibly, under any
circumstances, have been better for her favorite Grisha if he had
never existed? And this seemed to her so wild, so strange, that
she shook her head to drive away this tangle of whirling, mad
"No, I dont know; its not right," was all she said, with an
expression of disgust on her face.
"Yes, but you mustnt forget that you and I.... And besides
that," added Anna, in spite of the wealth of her arguments and
the poverty of Dollys objections, seeming still to admit that it
was not right, "dont forget the chief point, that I am not now
in the same position as you. For you the question is: do you
desire not to have any more children; while for me it is: do I
desire to have them? And thats a great difference. You must
see that I cant desire it in my position."
Darya Alexandrovna made no reply. She suddenly felt that she had
got far away from Anna; that there lay between them a barrier of
questions on which they could never agree, and about which it was
better not to speak.
"Then there is all the more reason for you to legalize your
position, if possible," said Dolly.
"Yes, if possible," said Anna, speaking all at once in an utterly
different tone, subdued and mournful.
"Surely you dont mean a divorce is impossible? I was told your
husband had consented to it."
"Dolly, I dont want to talk about that."
"Oh, we wont then," Darya Alexandrovna hastened to say, noticing
the expression of suffering on Annas face. "All I see is that
you take too gloomy a view of things."
"I? Not at all! Im always bright and happy. You see, _je fais
des passions._ Veslovsky..."
"Yes, to tell the truth, I dont like Veslovskys tone," said
Darya Alexandrovna, anxious to change the subject.
"Oh, thats nonsense! It amuses Alexey, and thats all; but hes
a boy, and quite under my control. You know, I turn him as I
please. Its just as it might be with your Grisha.... Dolly!"--
she suddenly changed the subject--"you say I take too gloomy a
view of things. You cant understand. Its too awful! I try not
to take any view of it at all."
"But I think you ought to. You ought to do all you can."
"But what can I do? Nothing. You tell me to marry Alexey, and
say I dont think about it. I dont think about it!" she
repeated, and a flush rose into her face. She got up,
straightening her chest, and sighed heavily. With her light step
she began pacing up and down the room, stopping now and then. "I
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